This was 2nd time I came back home in this year. And I work here complete 1 year. This time i decided to paid air's ticket by myself. Cost is no meaning for me but can't do often T_T. I want to back for stay with my mother and meet my friends. A month agos, i missed the important's 2 events of Thailand and my mother's birthday. I'm so sad and I need to refresh my mind.

I arrived to Bangkok at 01:30 am and at home about 02:20 am. My mom wake up when I arrived and we talked a little then I back to my room. She prepared some flower for me aimed me to pray to priest. I pray until 04:30 am. Because I didn't live here on her birthday so I pray equal her age + 1. It's about 71 times but actually I pray more than that because I'm sleeping a bit during praying then I pray again when I forget.

During 5 days in Bangkok, Daylight I stay at home with mother for talking and go with her. In the evening I meet my friends. My mother and friends gave many stuff from our king's anniversary 60 to throne. I feel warm and don't feel sad anymore. So I'm proud that I have excellent mother and real friends. In the past, I know much people but never feel like a friend. Now I have less friend and bother to know new people but I feel good and I can feel what is real friend. "Nothing to say but always feeling".

I might not know this feeling if I don't work on aboard. Because of live alone that make me know something. Something close-up until can't watch it. Many time I forget things close-up so I just know when I live so far. However, I'm lucky man because I have a good family and good friends. When I feel alone then they never forget me. I mind is improve since I was a monk at WAT Amphawan. Althought I was a monk only a month but I got some worth that teach me for using whole life. Dhama make me grown-up and I will keep it until I pass away. I will try to be a good man (now still bad) as I can. Because I have a good family and good friend so this push me to try to be a good person.

 

In my heart. ^_^